Oh hi. Here I am.
My blog was *poof* gone. But I’m back now. A little bit of administrative oopsies.
So it’s been a while. I have a post in the wings that will go up very soon. But for now I thought I’d play a little catch up.
I’m still working on that “lifestyle change.” But on the bright side, I’m managing my anxiety a lot better.
I stopped going to individual counseling because I really wasn’t getting a whole lot out of it and I was anxious about missing work to go to the appointments. So, that was kind of missing the point. I may start the group therapy class.
I haven’t decided yet.
What will really help is if I actually commit to move my ass and relieve anxiety with physical activity. I can do that. I really need to do that.
It won’t hurt the physical health or the waistline either.
Lucky (or not so lucky depending on how you look at it) for us Southern California people, the weather has been mild or even hot during this “winter.” So I really have no excuse for being a couch potato. I just hope we don’t end up fighting each other for water and food because of this awful drought.
This past weekend my first baby turned 12 years old. It’s been a rough year. Especially since starting 6th grade. A lot of changes and turmoil physically and mentally. But amazingly, we are closer than ever. I love that she talks to me about everything. She’s a great kid.
My in-laws were in town over the weekend. And we had a nice celebration. I love when they visit because the babies get so happy to see their Tata and Abuelita and uncles. And Marco gets a boost of happy from being with his family. They’re pretty awesome. I got really lucky in the in-law draw.
In a couple of weeks, we’ll complete Isa’s birthday celebration with a trip to Disneyland. We are all looking forward to that. Gabi gets a little jealous when she’s not the center of attention, but I’m sure a trip to Disneyland, even if it is for her sister, will bring a smile to her face.
Last night, I had to update the twins’ audition photo. And I realized that we had no good picture of the two of them that could be used for this purpose. So we had to scramble to get one taken. Getting them to stand or sit side by side, both of them looking at the camera proved to be nearly impossible. After an hour of trying, we finally got a usable one. One out of at least 100 shots. Here’s my favorite outake. They were giggling like crazy in this one.
To my babies on their third birthday,
I didn’t think I’d be having any more kids after Isa and Gabi. And then your daddy came into my life. And I thought, ok, MAYBE one more. Maybe…
Little did I know then, that we would be doubly blessed.
Born less than a year after the death of your great grandmothers on both sides, you girls have their strong and spunky spirits in you, as well as their names
. You’ve made our family complete and have brought us such joy.
A day doesn’t go by where we aren’t amazed by the things you say and do. You bring happiness to all around you.
Happy birthday, Ema and Sara. You are so loved.
You should know that I’m a big fan of cooking. I love to make things from scratch for my family and friends.
But you should also know, that sometimes, I’m just too busy or it’s just too much.
Last holiday season, cooking a huge dinner in my kitchen took multiple days and a lot of coordination and help. This year, we want to make it a little easier on everyone.
When Fresh and Easy asked me if I wanted to try their Holiday Box and share it with my readers, I jumped at the chance! Their food is always good and of course it’s Fresh and Easy!!
For the holiday box, customers can choose between a turkey breast, ham, or prime rib. I went for the prime rib.
It was super easy to cook and was ready in just one hour using my oven. And since most of it was cooked in the trays they came in, less mess to clean up!
The timing was perfect because my in-laws came to town for Marco’s birthday. It was a resounding hit! Everyone loved the food. Even the kids. And it was more than enough for all 10 of us even though the box serves 6-8. It includes side dishes of your choice and a free pumpkin pie! You can order yours at http://freshandeasy.com/holidaymeals for under $65.
Fresh and Easy also gave me a $50 to share with one lucky reader. Just post a comment with your favorite Thanksgiving dish and I’ll randomly choose one winner. You have until 11:59pm on Tuesday, Nov 19. (the gift card can be used in store only)
Fresh and Easy provided me with the holiday box to try out and share. All opinions are my own. Thanks for reading!
I had my follow up appointments with my doctors today. Yes, plural.. doctors.
First I saw my primary care physician. I really love her by the way. We discussed a few things that I have going on. The kidney stones, for one, which haven’t been bothering me lately. My ER episode and the accompanying back/shoulder situation. Other stuff that are not immediately threatening, but should not be ignored. I’ll be going for follow up fasting bloodwork. And some physical therapy for my back and shoulder. And more follow up stuff.
When you have generalized anxiety disorder, like I do, you really ought to see a psychiatrist and probably a therapist too on a regular basis. And I decided almost 5 years ago that I was OKAY, and to just forget about all that stuff.
Well, finding myself in the ER with a panic attack has proven me wrong. I really liked the psychiatrist and I have a therapy appointment coming up soon. And I promised the intake manager that if I didn’t like the therapist that I would request a change rather than just quit like I did last time.
I expect to feel a lot of relief in a month or so after the happy pills kick in. The other thing the psychiatrist helped me understand that there is nothing WRONG with needing medication for anxiety. And it’s far better to take a little pill each day than to wind up in the ER thinking you’re going to die or finding yourself hospitalized for it. (although a very small part of me thinks a few days in the hospital away from stress sounds kind of inviting)
The worst part of my day was on the way from my primary doc appointment to my psychiatry appointment, when I had to stop for gas. As I pulled up to the pump, I made a call to work because there was a lot going on and I wasn’t physically there to take care of it myself. Well, I got distracted and I left my key on the seat when I got out to pump the gas. AND THE CAR LOCKED ITSELF!
I nicely begged the gas station guy to use the phone and called Marco who called for roadside assistance. TWO HOURS LATER, the guy finally showed up and said “sorry for the wait.” Time for us to change car insurance because that’s twice Progressive has left us hanging. And on a day when I’m supposed to be getting anxiety relief, and instead, I’m sitting next to my car seeing my phone on the seat mocking me. Not exactly relaxing my anxiety.
Thankfully, I was able to call and apologize for missing my first appointment and was able to get one an hour later.
So, now I have some meds and a plan. A plan to make myself better.
Because I need to be around for the long haul. I need to watch my babies grow up. And grow old with Marco next to me.
So, it’s time to put the oxygen mask on myself. And stop ignoring those little things.
And get healthy.
And do what has to be a ….