Oh hi. Here I am.
My blog was *poof* gone. But I’m back now. A little bit of administrative oopsies.
So it’s been a while. I have a post in the wings that will go up very soon. But for now I thought I’d play a little catch up.
I’m still working on that “lifestyle change.” But on the bright side, I’m managing my anxiety a lot better.
I stopped going to individual counseling because I really wasn’t getting a whole lot out of it and I was anxious about missing work to go to the appointments. So, that was kind of missing the point. I may start the group therapy class.
I haven’t decided yet.
What will really help is if I actually commit to move my ass and relieve anxiety with physical activity. I can do that. I really need to do that.
It won’t hurt the physical health or the waistline either.
Lucky (or not so lucky depending on how you look at it) for us Southern California people, the weather has been mild or even hot during this “winter.” So I really have no excuse for being a couch potato. I just hope we don’t end up fighting each other for water and food because of this awful drought.
This past weekend my first baby turned 12 years old. It’s been a rough year. Especially since starting 6th grade. A lot of changes and turmoil physically and mentally. But amazingly, we are closer than ever. I love that she talks to me about everything. She’s a great kid.
My in-laws were in town over the weekend. And we had a nice celebration. I love when they visit because the babies get so happy to see their Tata and Abuelita and uncles. And Marco gets a boost of happy from being with his family. They’re pretty awesome. I got really lucky in the in-law draw.
In a couple of weeks, we’ll complete Isa’s birthday celebration with a trip to Disneyland. We are all looking forward to that. Gabi gets a little jealous when she’s not the center of attention, but I’m sure a trip to Disneyland, even if it is for her sister, will bring a smile to her face.
Last night, I had to update the twins’ audition photo. And I realized that we had no good picture of the two of them that could be used for this purpose. So we had to scramble to get one taken. Getting them to stand or sit side by side, both of them looking at the camera proved to be nearly impossible. After an hour of trying, we finally got a usable one. One out of at least 100 shots. Here’s my favorite outake. They were giggling like crazy in this one.
To my babies on their third birthday,
I didn’t think I’d be having any more kids after Isa and Gabi. And then your daddy came into my life. And I thought, ok, MAYBE one more. Maybe…
Little did I know then, that we would be doubly blessed.
Born less than a year after the death of your great grandmothers on both sides, you girls have their strong and spunky spirits in you, as well as their names
. You’ve made our family complete and have brought us such joy.
A day doesn’t go by where we aren’t amazed by the things you say and do. You bring happiness to all around you.
Happy birthday, Ema and Sara. You are so loved.
It started with shoulder pain. And then some tingling in my left hand sometime last week. Over the next few days it got worse, not better.
By Friday my right hand was feeling a little tingly too.
Maybe it’s carpal tunnel.
Maybe it’s worse. Googled Heart Attack Signs for Women…
Convinced myself I was dying.
Maybe it’s a tumor.
Marco talked me down from the ledge. By the time I got home from work, I was feeling better. Thought, I’ll go to urgent care tomorrow if my shoulder is still bothering me.
Took it easy on Saturday. The tingling still there. Didn’t have much strength in my left arm.
During the day, we were busy, so I never did make it to Urgent Care. Took a motrin. I probably should have gone, but we had plans for a date night, early dinner. Marco tried to massage the spot on my back/shoulder. I screamed. OUCH!
Ok it’s probably not a heart attack. My back/shoulder hurt like hell though. Carrying almost 40 pound twins will do that.
Got up super early this morning and took the twins to Knotts.
The tingling still in my arm, both hands. and now my legs too.
Surely I’m dying.
I envisioned paramedics having to take me away from the park.
Had some fun taking the twins around Camp Spooky.
Realizing my strength was not what it should be. Am I feeling short of breath? I am, I think. Why am I so clammy?
After we leave, I should definitely go to urgent care.
The twins were having fun, paramedics would ruin this experience.
Soon the twins were cranky and wiped out.
And I was still feeling all the symptoms. Plus my chest was kind of achy. What if I have a blockage somewhere. Isn’t heart disease the silent killer among women? Oh God, I’m dying, right?
I called my sister as we left the park, she suggested I go directly to the ER and not wait to get into urgent care. She met me there so Marco could take the cranky twins home.
I’m happy to report that the very cute, super nice doctor assured me that I was not dying. He did an EKG to make sure. But he said the symptoms I’m having are typical to panic attacks and anxiety. Also the muscle strain in my back/shoulder area. Am I under stress by any chance?
HA and also, HA HA!
Blood pressure was a little high, but that was likely due to my imagined imminent death.
A little valium and a huge nap, and I’m feeling a little better.
Time to go back to the psych and counseling center.
Anxiety is stupid. But it’s not imaginary and I have to do something about it.
My poor Isa gets it from me.
The good thing is, no one is dying.
Disclaimer: GigaSavvy has invited me and my family to experience Camp Spooky at Knott’s Berry Farm. No other compensation has been given. All opinions are my own.
One of my favorite things to do in Southern California is visit Knott’s Berry Farm. The theme park has grown over the years from the early days of my childhood when my grandparents would pick us up and take us there for delicious chicken dinners and a walk through the ghost town.
We’ve been fortunate to visit Camp Spooky over the past couple of years as a family and always have a great time! Halloween fun for the little ones. Making memories that they will carry with them as well.
This year, I’m especially excited because the twins are a little older and will get to experience it on a different level than when they were babies. I can’t wait for their reactions and see them sing and dance along with the Charlie Brown’s Spooktacular.
KNOTT’S CAMP SNOOPY TRANSFORMS INTO CAMP SPOOKY WEEKENDS IN OCTOBER
Buena Park, Ca – Weekends in October, Knott’s Berry Farm invites you and your family to join in on the Halloween fun in Camp Spooky. This daytime, non-scare celebration, of cheer rather than fear, is the social event of the season with shows, activities and of course, trick-or-treating all geared for kids ages 3-11.
Kids can take part in “Snoopy’s Costume Contest” and show off their costume as they join the affable group of monsters, and the PEANUTS characters, in a spirited procession through Camp Spooky.
In the Camp Spooky Theatre “Charlie Brown’s Spooktacular Show”, will have you singing and dancing in the aisles to all your favorite Halloween tunes. Kids of all ages can explore the wacky hijinks of the Monster Factory, a fun interactive maze where the little ones create the things that go bump in the night.
Also included with theme park admission, your little ghost, goblin or monster can fill their complimentary goodie bag with sweet treats given out at the five Trick-or-Treating locations in Camp Spooky. At the “Creepy Crawly Critter Cave” Knott’s park naturalists will amaze with slithery, slimy, creepy, crawly critters.
The whole family will enjoy “Scary Stories at the Lodge” where master story tellers will spin the craziest, creepiest, silliest tales this side of the “Great Pumpkin Patch”. And what goes better with a story than a delicious cookie that you can decorate yourself at the “Kooky Cookie Painting.”(Small fee applies)
Camp Spooky runs weekends October 5-27 and is included with regular park admission. Knott’s Berry Farm Theme Park operating hours are 10:00 am to 5:30 pm. For more information on all the exciting things that are going on at Knott’s Berry Farm, call (714) 220-5200 or visit us online at www.knotts.com.
– KNOTT’S 2013 –